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i feel like im the stereotype of so many different things, to the t..
for example..
ive been told by people in my family that im dramatic.
its probably the most insulting, hurtful thing ever to be told that when you really know why theyre saying this buts its completely not what you ever wanted them to feel like you were being..because sometimes its hard to separate what you see and whats not really there.
so the other day i decided to break it down and separate dramatic from emotional.
when youre a drama queen, you like to get yourself into trouble by somehow being involved in an argument, a fight... i cant seem to find more in depth words to fit what people get into. anyways what im trying to say is that drama filled people like to cause whatever they can sit up for any reason whether it be because their life is boring, they have nothing to do, or in the extreme cases (which what case isnt when you like to cause trouble) where you honestly put your whole head into hurting someone, inturn causing you to be that drama queen and that just would never ever ever be me.
when youre emotional, youre really just born with a weakened state of the heart. and as the years progress you have to learn from seeing how other people dont feel, how good that heart is and know so very few hate it. it was really hard to see it when i was little to because i mean your brain doesnt have the growth yet to help separate the important from not.

but im not any stereotype, at all, its like a mix of a lot of different things that seem as close to the stereotype but its just not the whole package.

you treat me the same way, if not worse, than my past did. but yet i know ive done so much to you that it would just throw a normal person away. so at the beginning i understood why i kept seeing glimpses of how ive already been treated. but now, its been so long and i cant see you as anything but what i walked away from a long time ago to try to mend my life again
how can i really trust anyones word when they tell me ill be happier without you; if i know i caused this in the beginning but youre not letting anything go. how can i know if anything with you is real now. are you still really hurt..or are you just another........how could i ever let go from you. i feel as if id seriously crumble. i dont want to be in the future looking at myself saying you should of held on, he really was true. but i dont wanna hold on now and be with you in the future and say to myself, you should of let go.