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i feel like im the stereotype of so many different things, to the t..
for example..
ive been told by people in my family that im dramatic.
its probably the most insulting, hurtful thing ever to be told that when you really know why theyre saying this buts its completely not what you ever wanted them to feel like you were being..because sometimes its hard to separate what you see and whats not really there.
so the other day i decided to break it down and separate dramatic from emotional.
when youre a drama queen, you like to get yourself into trouble by somehow being involved in an argument, a fight... i cant seem to find more in depth words to fit what people get into. anyways what im trying to say is that drama filled people like to cause whatever they can sit up for any reason whether it be because their life is boring, they have nothing to do, or in the extreme cases (which what case isnt when you like to cause trouble) where you honestly put your whole head into hurting someone, inturn causing you to be that drama queen and that just would never ever ever be me.
when youre emotional, youre really just born with a weakened state of the heart. and as the years progress you have to learn from seeing how other people dont feel, how good that heart is and know so very few hate it. it was really hard to see it when i was little to because i mean your brain doesnt have the growth yet to help separate the important from not.

but im not any stereotype, at all, its like a mix of a lot of different things that seem as close to the stereotype but its just not the whole package.

you treat me the same way, if not worse, than my past did. but yet i know ive done so much to you that it would just throw a normal person away. so at the beginning i understood why i kept seeing glimpses of how ive already been treated. but now, its been so long and i cant see you as anything but what i walked away from a long time ago to try to mend my life again
how can i really trust anyones word when they tell me ill be happier without you; if i know i caused this in the beginning but youre not letting anything go. how can i know if anything with you is real now. are you still really hurt..or are you just another........how could i ever let go from you. i feel as if id seriously crumble. i dont want to be in the future looking at myself saying you should of held on, he really was true. but i dont wanna hold on now and be with you in the future and say to myself, you should of let go.

world wide heart

so i understand that everyone is different. i understand everyone has their own opinions. i get that everyone has a completely different brain, and also people agree on a lot of the same things. but what i (no matter how many times go over) dont understand is what goes through peoples minds when they reach that point of hurting someone you love, without regret. i was just watching the bad girls club and this girl invited her best friend to stay with her and she says there was a lot of drama in the house that night with the other roommates so to "relax" they drank poison in the hot tub.. obviously they ended up drinking themselves to stupidity like most girls and later on in the morning she called her boyfriend, still drunk, and told him that her and her best friend had had sex. she laughed it off, and that morning said goodbye to her friend because she was going back home. later on her boyfriend had called the house and he was like you know we have to talk. so she gets on the phone and shes like blah blah yea you know i didnt mean to all we did was make out in the shower. being the thank godly man, after her predictable im sorry i love you youre my whole heart i didnt mean to cliche speech.... he was ultimately like its not cool, im not like other kids who likes stuff like this, im a man...i dont look at you the same, its not the same and this isnt gonna work... she starts crying and writin her sob story. my heart usually feels, for everything but i just dont feel bad at all. what really goes through your head to make you think its okay to cheat who you love. to be disloyal to the person youve given your heart to. she even says at the beginning of the episode "cheating is cheating no matter if its a girl or a guy". and as im watching the rerun episode again shes saying oh i am bi sexual but i wouldnt hurt my boyfriend and when i watched the end of the episode earlier she says to her boyfriend im not bi sexual....i know this is a tv show but this cant just be all artificial, and even if it is, people had to get these ideas somewhere and obviously somewhere in the world this has been done with a similar personality that this girl has.. shes not remorseful; she wants to do what she wants to do she doesnt wanna think about what will happen if she causes a tornado in the road of her relationship and she wants her home to be completely made up when she gets home..yea too bad. i honestly cant stand this show, most all those girls are exactly what they try to live up to; BAD girls....... she says near the episode when her friend is leaving "aww all my loves are leaving me"..... guess what, you predicted the future.